I can see why the forces use sleep deprivation as torture. They should employ toddlers for this reason. Ruby has decided that waking every hour is a good idea. Not for me. I struggle with tiredness anyway as I have a b12 vitamin deficiency and my body struggles to absorb certain vitamins making me more… Continue reading E is for exhaustion
Stupid stupid accident still hasn't gone away. It's days like this my fear comes back. The fear of falling over is real. I can deal with cold and fresh snow is pretty but it brings the fear of falling to come back into my head. Thanks to my accident I know what it feels like… Continue reading Fear of falling
A while back I wrote a post about putting less expectations on myself. Not having the lists with the deadlines and beating myself up about the impossible tasks I set myself. So I decided that I still needed lists as I have a memory of a goldfish these days but not put deadlines in the… Continue reading A is for agenda
This time last year I was... basically a mess. Struggling to cope with everything life wanted to throw at me to the point of my panic attacks returning. I felt as if I couldn't get myself out at the rut. The medication I was taking made me worse and I didn't know what to do.… Continue reading Proud of the little achievements
I don't bother with new year resolutions. I don't see the point in new year, new you. I've been thinking about this all day. Why do we feel that a new year means we have to set high expectations onto ourselves when if it's such a big deal then why didn't you start doing it… Continue reading New year, new…. nothing
Two years ago today I had an accident at work. I had only been back at work for three weeks after maternity leave. It was a Tuesday afternoon and I tripped over a telephone cable that was under my desk. I cracked my right elbow and fractured my left wrist. My daughter was 11 months… Continue reading Two years ago today
When we get asked "how are you?" Our usual response is "I'm ok, just busy". As if that's what is expected. We seem to say that proudly yet inside we are dying to sit down and relax. I read an article today about the key to productivity is to do nothing. It was a fantastic… Continue reading Is being busy now a badge of honour?
Routine for me is super important. It comes from my anxiety and panic attacks that I need to be in control, hence a brilliant routine. Last week and this week has been strange. Beyond the norm I am used to. The builders has caused chaos to my routine yet weirdly enough I’m fine. No panic… Continue reading Change of Routine
I’ve been on holiday for the last week and it’s actually felt like a holiday. Even on a tots week at Butlins. I decided to not write and just enjoy the week off. It was lovely not to have to think about work/builders/christmas(!)/housework etc. I took a mind holiday. It was lovely not to worry… Continue reading Holiday silence
Is my birthday.... it’s not a “big” birthday but it’s a birthday of mine. Usually I don’t care for my birthday as I not one for big celebrations but this year we shall be away. A whole week off from thinking about work/house/builders etc is the best birthday present. I’m calling it a brain birthday… Continue reading One week today!